From: Hubert Mania (humania@t-online.de)
Date: Sat Feb 22 2003 - 13:58:06 MST
Lee Corbin said amongst other wise advices:
> You have to know, when you see yourself start writing
> like this, knowingly advocating greater pain and
> suffering, that something is out of kilter. Yes,
> I do appreciate that from your point of view, there
> are *ABSOLUTELY* no reasons whatsoever to invade Iraq,
> and so from your point of view we are all raving mad.
> (Is this true, or not? Or am I reading too much into
> what *you* are saying, now?) But that's what it sounds
> like.
Lee, I knew it would get me that far when I decided not to leave the field
to the war supporters of this list. I knew exactly that I would be
transformed into the same kind of dragon myself who I was fighting against.
But I can bear these complementary poles, It is an excellent exercise for
the unity of psychological opposite pairs you will probably have to bear as
a transhuman entity.
I put on the shoe that Mike Lorrey threw at us war opponents*? So I tried
to come up with an equivalent of the pain of the poor
American soldiers and Iraqi civilians, he and the other hawks are willing to
accept. I am aware of this with every word I write, but I have it under
control, because I do it in the spirit of Carlos Castaneda's "controlled
foolishness" (retranslated from German, so I don`t know if it is the
original term) It is my drastic way of saying "wake up!" to those who
accept 300.000 dead and one million refugees and a lot of more misery
in Iraq. Actually I would never turn on this future Buddha machine
of all encompassing sympathy with the wounded. But there are moments
when I wished I had the guts to do it to my own body-mind-continuum
to experience what war suffering really means.
Isn`t it strange: while writing down my fantasies about this side effect of
an uploading machine, I had to think about you and Rafal musing on capital
punishment a couple of months ago, how it was *me* who got infuriated by
your kind of sarcasm. At that time I thought about leaving the list and
started to insult you and you wrote back very calmly which impressed me, I
must say. I think I remember that you demanded freedom of thinking and
writing about all the funny things you wanted to impose on people who were
sentenced to death. Well, now I am on a similar level of writing here. I am
aware of it but I do not regret it. It only shows me what already the
*prospect* of a war is doing to the mind of an originally peaceful man.
It's a shame and you can blame me for this. That's okay. I don`t have
anything to loose. This is a crucial moment of world history and I will not
shut up. Call it *aggressive pacifism* or *pacifimania* or whatever you
want. My family name is my life's program.
Hubert Mania
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