I have experienced some of what you're talking about relating to the
intricate detail when I was younger. As life went on I dulled it for the
sake of conformity and as my view of imagination vs reality split as I
became older. I need to bring this piece back to me. It's funny how after
elementary, middle, high school, when it's all over you look back and see
all the personality bits and pieces and attempt to lock them all together
and develop them into a firm personality or at least thats the way I see
it. Also what are you talking about in the area of "sanity checks"? I had a
bad panic attack (related to increase in heart rate) the first time I tried
chronic and at the same time had a strange virus that was running through
my family, where you felt very lightheaded---almost empty headed. This
bizarre combination altered my perception in wierd ways for about a week
after I used it. I had to frequently do "sanity checks" and became paranoid
for awhile because strange delusions would come into my head causing me to
act like a hypochrondriac. Some of the symptoms I had were zero short term
memory (forget trying to follow a movie), feeling like I was going to
passout, my entire body going cold, and a terror that I had somehow damaged
my brain and perminantly altered my perception into a paranoid losing touch
with reality when I knew that it was only a little dose of THC. I had tried
weed quite a few times before but that was unlike anything I had ever
experienced before. (Not addicting, I don't have the gene) I don't know
WHAT was going on with the virus in my head. Fortunetly I got over it.
>I also have a difficult time sleeping regular hours and am often up
>all night, but that may just be me.
Ahhh, The life of the hacker :) I'm a night person anyways so getting into
computers was only an extension of it.
"You cannot discover new oceans, unless you have the courage
to lose sight of the shore"
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