Re: Gay Extropians?

my inner geek (
Tue, 10 Aug 1999 17:39:32 -0700

Any idea of sexuality can be reprogrammed? I'd like to consider myself to be bisexual, although the truth is that I'm still not completely comfortable with same sex sexual contact (although on a platonic basis, I enjoy emotion intimacy with both sexes).

I've had one experimental homosexual relationship that lasted about 2 weeks. It started as my being a kind of apprentice to a Reiki massage practitioner, who slowly desensitized me to being nude while receiving a massage, then eventually receiving oral sex. It felt liberating to know that this was *not* high risk behavior, since I wasn't receiving fluids.

I've been told by other massage practitioners that this amounts to undue influence and breach of trust. For me, though, it was a kind of therapy: a chance to know that men can exchange sensual pleasures in a way that respectful and safe. I tried French kissing, but didn't ejoy kissing a masculine mouth nearly as much as a woman's.

I do, however, consider myself to be a hedonist. So why not conquer the anxiety and discomfort and learn to enjoy same sex affairs? There's such a large community of beautiful people who are gay or bisexual. Why be limited?